Dulu, aku pernah berniat untuk menulis disini tentang aku, tentang dia, tentang cinta....tetapi hakikatnya aku tidak mempunyai idea untuk menulis tentang semua itu.. do i need to tell about my past or my current life or my hope for my future... mmmmm i think..let me start with what's goin on.. in my life now... its a month(4.09.06) now im with him... yupp... its too short to make any conclusion or any decision especially when its comes to love...am i too fast in this??how would we know that he/she's the 'One'....who should decide it?.... as for me ... no one else could be the best person to decide... of course ourselves... since I've known him for about 7 years....knowing him just as a friend only... love him just as a person that i suppose to love... nothing more nothing less....and just recently... that kind of feeling has been changed to something else... i mean.. something real!!!could be a real love... i presumed ...anyway... it has made me totally out of control... in the beginning.. lost in my self... but luckily I've managed to get back on my track....its good to be lost sometimes..its ok to feel guilty on certain thing(things that we had never thought to do before)...to feel confuse and to feel doubt in order to have the answer.... so that we can think... think deeply.. not just 'pasrah',go with the flow and don't have any intention to make a step ahead from what we had..rite???and at least its my turning point to do something in my life.. "move on" .... and as for him... i know he's feel the same way like i did...the different is he has been losing his self for a long time.. try to find something in his life..something which he thought better..without any guide.. without any support..without any love....mmm... when we've decided to be together...its hard to me to adapt it since I'm a kind of person which always think A lot.. who always has many thought,which always make the attributes i suppose to look at.. as the constraint of any decision will be made of..and many more..in other hand I'm a complicated person... as what he has classified me.. i guess I've to agree with him....and now.. I'm happy.. happy to be with him.. as he taught me a lot about love.. about scarifies.. about giving...the more we give the more we get.. i hope so..and perhaps previously I've only concerned only on my needs.. my family.. not the others..anyway.. now I'm not trying to be someone else.. but i juz want to be someone better to be with... thats all...till now.. i juz can say if we feel lost.. juz go back to the basic... "what is our purpose".. I'm sure u will find the answer...and to him... I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH...
P/s : you will be a philosopher when you are in love... heheeheh
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