Arggg... i hate when i got flu..make me dont feel to work today.... (juz another excuse actually)..anyway it's because i didnt get enough rest last night since i was trying to make hari raya's 'kuih'..hehehe.. proud to myself..
at day time.. before i went to the class( outcampus student loo).. i've sms my x-dearest.. i need to see him...ok.. to make it short..the sms were still pending at the time that i suppose to meet him..means he didnt read it.. anyway.. i still went to his place.. hoping he'll see me or whateverla...and lucky me.. it wont take me long to wait... about an hour i guess.. (berkat tawakal kot).He was suprised to see me and thought that i've actually wanted to see someone else....(yaa rite,, darlin.. of course i want to see u)..Back to my purpose of seeing him... I want him BACK...I've told him..even though i felt relief, no pressure.. and free... but deep inside .. i felt numb...empty... despair...I hate when i didnt fought back when he was trying to break up.. or should i say.. we both were..mmm i dont know...yess .. i agreed that i've come out with this idea...i've asked him about our relationship... i was being selfish.. i didnt know where was my patience...remember about my previous post in 'hati aku '& 'pilihan hati'...
Ppl said that i am too rush in making any decision... am i??i guess i've to agreed with them... just that it will happen that way when i focus only on the result of the problem...not the problem itself... and 'masa' will always make me in 'gelisah'... "demi masa sesungguhnya manusia itu hidup dalam kerugian"...i've misinterpreted that; gossh... my fault.. and i regretted it..
Mungkin sikap aku yang terburu buru ini
yang mengkucarkacirkan keadaan..
Mungkin aku sendiri merasa kurang percaya kepada dia...
kerana aku hanyalah menumpang kasih...berkongsi kasih...
Segalanya Mungkin....
Dari blog kasih :
at day time.. before i went to the class( outcampus student loo).. i've sms my x-dearest.. i need to see him...ok.. to make it short..the sms were still pending at the time that i suppose to meet him..means he didnt read it.. anyway.. i still went to his place.. hoping he'll see me or whateverla...and lucky me.. it wont take me long to wait... about an hour i guess.. (berkat tawakal kot).He was suprised to see me and thought that i've actually wanted to see someone else....(yaa rite,, darlin.. of course i want to see u)..Back to my purpose of seeing him... I want him BACK...I've told him..even though i felt relief, no pressure.. and free... but deep inside .. i felt numb...empty... despair...I hate when i didnt fought back when he was trying to break up.. or should i say.. we both were..mmm i dont know...yess .. i agreed that i've come out with this idea...i've asked him about our relationship... i was being selfish.. i didnt know where was my patience...remember about my previous post in 'hati aku '& 'pilihan hati'...
Ppl said that i am too rush in making any decision... am i??i guess i've to agreed with them... just that it will happen that way when i focus only on the result of the problem...not the problem itself... and 'masa' will always make me in 'gelisah'... "demi masa sesungguhnya manusia itu hidup dalam kerugian"...i've misinterpreted that; gossh... my fault.. and i regretted it..
Mungkin sikap aku yang terburu buru ini
yang mengkucarkacirkan keadaan..
Mungkin aku sendiri merasa kurang percaya kepada dia...
kerana aku hanyalah menumpang kasih...berkongsi kasih...
Segalanya Mungkin....
Dari blog kasih :
tiada yg menarik sekiranya terpaksa berkongsi kasih..
lebih byk makan hati berulam jantung...
hati sering dihantui perasaan cemburu...
otak ligat berfikir, apa yg berlaku antara dia dan 'org sana'...
bagaimanakah layanan yg diterima?
adakah lebih baik dr apa yg kita berikan?
cemburunya....apa yg 'org sana' ada, yang kita tiada?
harap2 di hati dia akan melayan sama rata....
tapi....ini hati manusia...BKN ALAT PENIMBANG...
P/s : hidup menumpang kasih...berkongsi pula..
bkn boleh meminta-minta...
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